But in the midst of all that, the essence of God opened your mind and heart to an essential characteristic of God - the miraculous. Infinite. Flexible. Open to infinite possibilities. That ALL things are possible to him who believes. And Jesus said this, so it is a TRUE statement.
This means that God by nature is FREE. And that strict Calvinist predestination is totally contrary to an essential characteristic of the Lord. So you abandon Calvin, and puzzle over the millions who accept his version of God's Word.
Somehow this led to a fuller understanding of what it means to be Universal - to be Catholic. That by the Infinite Universal Power of the Love and Truth of God's Holy Spirit a parent can ask God to wash away all of an infant's sins (past, present, and future).
It rankles the "believer's baptism" people. But why should it? Isn't this FAITH? Isn't this TOTAL reliance on the love of God in Christ Jesus? Isn't this TRULY accepting the promise of the Lord through Peter (Acts 2:39)? And the Bible, which I am to be thumped with, says:
I understand essentially that "Catholic" means "Holy" (to be made "whole" - body, mind, soul, and spirit - by the healing touch of Christ). When I was baptized I was made Holy. A Evangelical preacher then said to me with shock and indignation - "so you are saying you were saved by your parents!?" Notice how he ignored the Holy Spirit and put the emphasis on my parents. God baptized me. He is the ONE author and finisher of my baptism. God Himself is the STRENGTH of my baptism. This is absolutely crucial to understanding infant baptism.
Remember - God is LOVE. Who ever heard of a parent baptizing their infant because they hated their child?? It is crazy to even think such a thing. Parents baptize their infants out of DEEP heart TRUE LOVE. To not see this is true blindness. The validity of my baptism is based on the solid rock of the LOVE of God.
In baptism I embrace Christ in love and my commitment to Him to be good. And when I stumble, to come to Him and ask forgiveness. This is not hard.
So I find the true me and true inner peace, as an infant in the arms of those who truly love me - reflected in the drop of water I was baptized with. And I know from this, with deep personal conviction, I am Catholic. In the very core of my being - from the depths of my heart. The Lord has done this. Because He loves me.
Amen, Amen, Amen... That I am a reflection of The Creator.
That Catholic is who I am gives me joy. True joy. That I know something true. God has done this, and isn't it wonderful?